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  Copyright © 2012 Amber Garza

  All rights reserved.

  ISBN: 1-4679-8217-2

  ISBN-13: 9781467982177

  eBook ISBN: 978-1-62112-094-0

  Dedication

  To Mom for turning my dream into reality

  Acknowledgements:

  Thank you, Andrew, for your unconditional love and support. Eli and Kayleen, you are the best kids a mom could hope for. You always inspire me. Thank you to Dad, Matt, Karissa, Kagen and Rocky for always believing in me. Book club girls, I appreciate all your encouragement, support and laughs. A huge thank you goes to Amy Flores and Autumn Igo for the critiques, edits and suggestions. Lisa Eneqvist, thank you for designing the stunning cover. Thank you to the rest of my extended family (there are too many of you to name here). And, most importantly, thank you to God for everything. I couldn’t have done this without each and every one of you. I love you!

  1 Peter 5:8—Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy

  the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for

  someone to devour.

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Dedication

  Acknowledgements

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Look for Book 2: Entice (Summer 2012)

  1

  “I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I’m actually glad my mom’s sending me away for the summer. I can’t wait to get outta here.”

  My best friend Haley sat next to me on the couch with her feet propped up on the coffee table as she painted her toenails bright pink. Haley wouldn’t dare do that if her mom were home. Haley’s mom was a total neat freak and she’d never let us do our nails in her house. I glanced around at the spotless family room with its shiny furniture, which smelled like lemon, and the cream colored carpet striped with even vacuum lines. It was such a contrast to my own home. Haley didn’t realize how lucky she had it.

  “Weren’t you totally freaking out about leaving yesterday?”

  “Yeah.” I leaned back, blew my bangs off my forehead. “That was before I found out what a jerk Caleb was.”

  “Cause he wanted to sleep with you?”

  “Yeah, you should’ve seen him last night. He was all over me.”

  Haley peered up at me, her curly red hair falling like a curtain over her eyes. “I don’t get it. That’s never bothered you before.” She put down the nail polish, wiggled her glossy toes.

  “I guess I just thought Caleb was different. I thought he wanted more than just my body.”

  She dropped her feet to the carpet, but I could see the outline of her footprints on the coffee table “I’m sorry.”

  I waved away her sympathy. Now, I felt silly. After all, I had a reputation to uphold. “It doesn’t matter. I’ll spend the whole summer at my Grandma’s house in California and meet tons of guys.”

  “Cute, tan California boys.” Haley frowned. “Man, I am so jealous. You’re going to hang out on the beach while I’m stuck here in boring Washington.”

  “My grandma doesn’t live anywhere near the beach.”

  Haley raised her brows in a question. “I thought she lived in California.”

  “There’s not a beach everywhere in California. She lives in Folsom, it’s close to Sacramento.”

  “That makes me feel a little bit better. If I don’t get to hang out at the beach all summer you shouldn’t either.”

  “Thanks. That’s very selfless of you,” I teased. “Besides, there’s no way you’d survive all summer on the beach. Your pale skin would burn so bad.” I, on the other hand, was born to be a California girl with my blonde hair and blue eyes. A thought struck me. “Hey, there is a lake near my grandma’s house though.”

  “Ugh,” she groaned. “No fair. I’m going to be bored all summer and you’re going to meet some hot guy at the lake.”

  I giggled, even though inside I knew the truth. I was done with boys. However, I couldn’t share that news with anyone. No one would understand. Everyone thought I was tough. I’d been pretending for so long I sometimes fooled myself. Honestly, I was tired of being used. I really liked Caleb and I thought he liked me too. But after last night it was clear that I’d been wrong. I could still smell his garlicky breath as he pushed up against me and feel the urgency of his touch as he forced his hands on me. But it was his words that stung. “You’re nothing but a tease. I thought you were different.”

  “That makes two of us,” I’d replied.

  How stupid of me. Obviously he was only after one thing. I needed to go someplace where nobody knew me; where my reputation didn’t follow.

  “I can’t believe you’re leaving for the whole summer,” Haley whined now.

  “You’ve known about this for weeks.”

  “I know, but I seriously thought you’d get out of it. I mean, come on. We’re almost seniors. We’re practically grown-ups. Your mom can’t tell you what to do anymore.”

  “Really? Why don’t we ask your parents what they think of that?”

  Haley’s eyes widened. Her parents were way stricter than my mom.

  “Anyway, you’ll have plenty of fun without me. You spend practically all your time with Derek anyway.”

  “I do not.”

  I narrowed my eyes.

  “Okay, okay. I know. But still we’ve never spent the summer apart. Who will I talk with when Derek and I are in a fight?”

  “Chelsea.”

  “Chelsea? Seriously?”

  “She’s your friend, isn’t she?”

  Haley pursed her lips. “I guess. It’s just not the same.”

  “I know.” Haley and I had been inseparable since we were in seventh grade. I had just moved here and we quickly became friends. I thought she was the most beautiful girl I’d ever seen but everyone else teased her for being different. It’s funny because that’s what I liked about her. She signified a break from the tired pattern that had ruled my life.

  “I just don’t understand why your mom insists on you leaving. Since when does she care what you do?”

  She had a point. My mom was known for being pretty lax. Mom said the reason she was sending me away was so Grandma could talk some sense into me. Mom thought I was too wild or something, even though I was way tamer than most of my friends. Okay, other than Haley. I think Mom just wanted to get rid of me so she could spend all summer with her new boyfriend. She swore she didn’t have one. However, the cheesy grin on her face, and nonstop ringing of her cell told a different story.

  Anyway, none of that mattered because I was ready to leave town. Maybe I’d even come back a new person.

  When I returned home Mom sat at the grimy kitchen table with the phone pressed against her ear and giggled like a lovesick teenager. I didn’t even sound like that. I knew, because I worked hard at never sounding like my mom. In my opinion she always made a fool of herself. Something I never intended to do.

  The minute she saw me she whispered good-bye to her phantom caller and hung up. “Hey Mackenzie. Did you have fun at Haley’s?”

  I nodded, made a beeline for the fridge. I passed the sink, overflowing with dirty dishes. The scent of rotting food lingered. After pulling out a can of soda, I turned to her. “What about you? Have fun talking to your new boy toy?”

  Mom glared, the wrinkles around her heavily made up eyes crin
kling. “Look, I know you’re upset with me for sending you to Grandma’s for the summer, but that’s still no way to speak to me.”

  I popped open the can, poured some liquid down my throat. “I’m actually not upset about that at all. I can’t wait to go.”

  “Really?” Her eyebrows shot clear up to the darkened roots of her over-bleached hair.

  “Yep. The sooner the better, actually.”

  “What’s going on, Kenzie? Is this your way of punishing me? Acting like you can’t wait to get away from me?”

  I rolled my eyes. “Geez, Mom. Get over yourself. Not everything in this world has to do with you.”

  Mom sighed. “Then what does it have to do with?”

  “Caleb and I broke up, okay?”

  “Oh, honey I’m sorry. When did he break up with you?”

  “Why would you assume he broke up with me?” I exploded, my face heating up.

  “I-I-I,” Mom sputtered. “You were just so upset and-“

  “Whatever,” I cut her off and headed out of the kitchen.

  “Wait.” Mom stopped me.

  I spun around, irritated. “What?”

  “Let’s go out for dinner. I’ll take you wherever you want.”

  “No thanks.” I turned and raced down the narrow hallway, bare walls closing in on me, and I thought of how Haley’s were covered in family photos. When I reached my room, I slammed the door. Man, I was tired of this place. It was gonna be great to get away for the summer. I put the soda down on my nightstand, next to several empty cans, and flopped down on my bed. The tired springs creaked beneath my weight. As I stared at the rock and roll posters taped to my wall, I could hear Mom moving around downstairs. She was probably moping.

  It wasn’t quite dark yet, but the sky outside my window was tinged with a purplish hue. My stomach growled and I realized I was getting hungry. There was probably nothing in the house. Mom wasn’t good at keeping a stocked fridge. More than once I’d teased her that she couldn’t keep a boyfriend because she had no domestic skills. A guy would think she hung the moon, until she had him over for dinner. One bite of her lasagna and he’d be scared away for life.

  We were also broke. Doing hair paid okay, but not if that was the only source of income in a family. Maybe I should have taken Mom up on her offer. Otherwise I’d end up eating peanut butter out of the jar for dinner. Decision made, I scurried down the hallway, just in time to find Mom grabbing her purse and heading toward the front door.

  “Hey,” I called after her, “wait up.”

  “What?” she turned, a blank expression cloaking her face.

  “I changed my mind. Dinner sounds great.”

  Mom bit her lip. “Oh, I’m sorry. I called Carol and she invited me to go out tonight.”

  “What am I gonna do?”

  “I don’t know. Whatever you want.” Mom pulled a bill out of her wallet. “Here. That should be enough to pick up something for dinner.”

  I snatched the money and mumbled, “Thanks.”

  Mom smiled, waggled her fingers with her long dagger-like nails at me. “Don’t wait up.”

  Don’t worry. I never do.

  When the door closed, the silence enveloped me. I examined the money in my hand trying to figure out what I could buy for five dollars. Even though now I didn’t feel so hungry. I threw the bill on the kitchen table and trudged back down the darkened hallway. Swallowing the knot in my throat, I entered the bathroom.

  It’s not like I was surprised. I was always the backup plan. No one truly wanted me. No one chose me. Not my dad, who left when Mom told him she was pregnant. Not Caleb who only wanted one thing, or any of the other boys for that matter. Not my mom, who would rather spend a night with her girlfriends than her own daughter.

  Sometimes I hated my life. Sometimes I even hated myself.

  You’re worthless. No one wants you. Cold swept over me like a strong wind as the familiar voice whispered in my ear. Opening the medicine cabinet, I dipped my hand inside. When my fingers located what I wanted, I grabbed it.

  Sitting down on the closed toilet seat I held out my arm. For a split second I almost lost my nerve.

  Do it. You’ll feel so much better if you do.

  Shivering as if my veins were filled with ice, I brought the razor blade to the top of my arm. I held it against my skin and pulled.

  For a moment I just watched the dark blood spilling out, enjoyed the burning sensation. I wasn’t trying to off myself. Not yet, anyway. The cut wasn’t very deep. In a minute I would clean it up. It was just a way to deal with the pain. It was just a way to cope.

  2

  Grandma’s house was small and yellow with a sweeping porch lined with vibrant flowers. It was nestled in a quiet court. All the lawns were neatly mowed and the cars were parked in the driveways or garages, not lining the streets or parked in the grass like in my neighborhood. I felt like I was stepping into a painting as I climbed out of her car and lugged my suitcases up the steps to her front door. I hadn’t seen Grandma since I was a little girl. She and Mom had issues. However, it only took me a moment to spot her at the airport. She looked almost identical to Mom with her blonde hair, blue eyes and tanned skin.

  Grandma was pretty young too. I think all my friends pictured me staying with an old lady who smelled like mothballs, but Grandma was beautiful and smelled like Ralph Lauren perfume.

  “Here we are,” she said in her smooth, clear voice as she opened the front door. I stepped inside, my flip-flops slapping on the hardwood floors. Her family room looked like it had been cut out of a magazine with its cream couches, plush bold colored pillows and matching paintings. I was used to our eclectic mix of furniture we had collected over the years from yard sales and thrift stores.

  “Your house is beautiful,” I breathed.

  Grandma smiled and patted my back. “Come on. I’ll show you to your room.”

  I followed her down the short hallway lined with collages and pictures. We passed her bedroom and a bathroom before she opened the last door. The room was small with a white sleigh bed, matching nightstand and dresser. A large window, overlooking the neighbor’s front yard, covered the far wall and on the opposite wall was a closet with sliding mirrored doors.

  “The dresser and nightstand are empty so feel free to organize them however you would like. I’ll let you get settled,” she said before closing the door behind her.

  Dropping down onto the blue and white checked quilt that covered the bed, I sighed with satisfaction. The room smelled fresh like laundry detergent. It was so much different from home. A girl could get used to this. I couldn’t wait to tell Haley. Not for the first time I wished I had a cell phone. During my junior year I worked at Baskin Robbins and saved enough for my car. Even though it was a total clunker and everyone at school teased me, at least it carted me around. With my next job I planned to save for a phone.

  In the meantime I knew that Grandma had a computer. Later I would Facebook Haley. First, I needed to unpack. I knelt on the floor next to my suitcase and unzipped it. It flew open, spilling a couple pairs of jeans and some tops onto the floor. Scooping them up, I headed to the dresser. As I passed the window I caught a glimpse of someone outside through the cracks in the blinds. A thumping sound caught my attention. Stepping forward I reached out and using my thumb and index finger spread the blinds to peek out. A boy about my age stood in the driveway next door dribbling a basketball. He had short black hair and bronze skin. I couldn’t see his face but from the back he looked pretty built. As if he could sense me staring he turned around. He had dark eyes and a nice face. To be honest, he was totally hot. My heart beat faster and I felt my palms clamming up. I immediately pulled my hands away, causing the blinds to click back in place. The last thing I needed was to get my mind back on boys.

  I had sworn them off. Where was my self-control?

  Turning away from the window I resumed unpacking and tried not to think about the boy next door.

  Later that evening while Gran
dma made dinner, I sat outside on her porch swing. I told myself I only wanted to bask in the warm weather, not try to catch a glimpse of the hot neighbor. Even though I did smooth down my hair and apply my favorite lip-gloss. It didn’t matter anyway because the court was deadly silent like a ghost town. The only sound was the creaking of the swing as it rocked back and forth. A rustling in the bushes startled me, causing me to gasp and flinch. When a black cat pounced out, hissed at me and scurried toward the house next door I felt silly. Usually I didn’t get spooked so easily.

  “Hey,” a voice called, unnerving me further.

  I turned and saw a teenage girl with long black hair, wearing skinny jeans and a black halter-top walking in my direction. Where had she come from? In her hand she held a shopping bag and behind her I saw a car that hadn’t been there before, parked along the curb. How did I not hear her pull up?

  “That’s Pepper,” she said.

  “What?”

  “My cat. I saw her scare you. Sorry about that. She’s shy.” She approached, stuck out her hand. “I’m Rhiannon, by the way.” I noticed her nails were short, painted black and she had a tattoo I couldn’t identify on the inner part of her wrist.

  I thought of my own markings and pulled my long-sleeved shirt down lower before returning the handshake. Her skin was hot as if she had a fever. “I’m Mackenzie but most people call me Kenzie for short. It’s sort of a mouthful.”

  “You must be Felicia’s granddaughter.”

  I nodded, studying Rhiannon. She had smooth, ivory skin, a pert nose, red lips, and eyes the most intense color green I’d ever seen. She smelled like incense.

  “Cool. You know, you have a great aura. I can tell we’re gonna be friends.” She winked.